I’m sorry you have chosen to see my words that way, though I understand why.

There’s no reason for me to have any pride. My life has been full of failings and choices I wish I had never made. I promise you I have Zero leg to stand on with regard to self-salvation based on my own goodness. If Christ hadn’t paid the price for my MANY sins, I would have no hope.

It’s hard to convey my heart in writing this way, especially on a phone keyboard with terrible fine motor skills.

And it is highly possible I haven’t comprehended your words well either. I was writing under the assumption that you identify yourself as a minister called by God to teach His Word. If, in your searching, you have had questions that resulted in not believing He is the truth anymore, then I was talking out of turn. I apologize for misunderstanding.

It’s hard to believe all of Jesus. It really is. I’ve had plenty of questions in my own journey. And plenty of failures. I could never profess to know everything or be even close to perfect.

I cannot, however, reconcile believing in a God who I think lies. If He lied about the things that make me u comfortable, I don’t think I could trust that He is telling the truth about anything.

Yes, my God definitely mentions sin. And I’ve committed more than a few of them. It would be easier for me to decide that it’s okay because those things weren’t actually sin. But I’d be wrong.

Admitting I’ve sinned doesn’t make me a pariah. It doesn’t make anyone a pariah. It’s part of what necessary to have a relationship with Christ.

Again, I apologize for misreading and making assumptions. I based my comments on those inaccurate assumptions.